I feel like I haven’t blogged in forever. But I have been tired. Really tired. After analyzing the tiredness, it struck me that I have alot of changes going on in my life right now. And goodness, if anything sucks the energy out of you, it is having to change.
My boys are extremely tall (6’6″, 6’7″, and the third is on his way…5’11” at 13) When they had thier growth spurt in middle school, their legs HURT! Growing pains! Yes, there was pain involved. It’s the same way with us. We all change and grow and we all show symptoms at some point. There could be pain, but sometimes it is more subtle, like tiredness.
We have a new church home, which I love, and the people are so warm and welcoming. But they are new to me and their is some tension in getting to know them. I am not relaxed like I am with people I have known forever. It’s draining! It all takes time and soon I will be able to be free to be more…well, me.
There also have been changes on the home front. My oldest got married in December, my second graduated and is trying to get things in line for college, and my third has just started dating. All are changes that I have to adjust to. All sap me in some way. Not that they are bad changes, but changes nonetheless.
So, as I adjust, I find I need my sleep. I have to escape in books or movies to recharge. And all the while I feel guilty for not writing. Why can’t my escape be writing? What does that say about me as a writer? I don’t know, honestly.
These are just ramblings in my mind today, such as they are.